Benedictus Spinoza: Filosofo de otro tiempo
1 month ago
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Thoughts
I have lots of thoughts and anxieties going through my head lately. I will wake up in the night and my heart will be racing. I can not seem to calm my brain and it is driving me crazy! I am up thinking about getting new tires for my car, Beck's room and how we have done nothing to get it ready since it is the play room for Elle, potty training Elle, raising kids in a big city, money and the list goes on and on. I literally tell myself to chill out and calm my mind. It doesn't work most time and I am up for hours at a time. I just hope this is part of this pregnancy and it will go away after my hormones level out. I want to be excited and happy and right now I am anxious and a basket case. But, the moment I think of meeting our little boy, I am full of excitement. Part of me wants this pregnancy to be over with and have him in my arms. The other part wants to take all of the time left in the pregnancy slow and enjoy my only child. I am so confident she will love Beck though. She is going to be a wonderful, loving big sister and I can not wait to see her in action. Wow how our lives are going to change!! I can't even picture it right now but it will be our reality soon!
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And somehow, with your racing thoughts and pregnancy moments, it will all get done! You have a beautiful family that adores you! I know what you mean though, it is those middle of the night mind races that make me stress! Hang in there, you soon get to have a family of four! Can't wait to see pis of Beck! Hugs!
It's hard to keep your mind still when there's so much going on. Hope it will get easier as your pregnancy moves along...try to just stay in the present moment and not take on too many worries about the future. (Easier said than done, I know!) Can't wait to see all of you in a few months. Wish I could be there now to give you a little break. xoxox
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